To Win, To Lose
Han Yeung
April 15, 2022
To falter, to disappoint, to lose, to fail.
To remember, to suffer, to strive to prevail
But fail, and dwindle, to stop, to lie
To wander, to weep, in anguish, to die
Trapped in a whirlpool, to be drowned like a fool
To be fooled cruelly, to be used as a tool.
An abyss, of no end, spiraling as I go:
Speechless, defenseless, reachless, sleepless.
In a corner, separated by an invisible border,
Disordered, no longer an adventurer or explorer.
Not foreseeing, not possible to find some meaning,
Screaming, wheezing, bleeding, beating.
Misleading. Retreating. Repeating. Deceasing.
They were, at some point, just mere words.
But now ignored, unfavored, unheard.
To blur, to cover, to forget what occurred.
Thinking, knowing, it was all deserved.
From hurt, to rage, to fury, to snap,
To lose control, to mindlessly attack.
To wander, to falter, to fail, to lose.
To try to find some kind of excuse
To realize my efforts were of no use.
To bury goals, and talents, and malice, and thoughts,
To begin anew, ignorant of previous loss.
Or live, to conquer, to rise, to write
To laugh, to play, to rest easy at night.
To work, to play, to ponder, to grin
To sit, to reflect, to breathe, to win.
But alas, you are the one to choose
Not destined to win, nor fated to lose.
To make mistakes and turn out like me
Or go out into the world, to see, to be free.
From a cage, of rage, deprived of light
Unengaged from reality, no will to fight.
To mock, to scorn; acting only in spite
To sin, to lie, to perish unliked.
Or to bear your anger inside a kite
Let it soar, while watching- immersed in its flight
To stand upright, your heart shining bright
To only head towards the highest of heights.
To never back down, always put up a fight
To recover after strikes, to defend what is right.
To respect, to be respectable, and to be liked.
To survive, to live, to see things right.
Finished, you either breathe; sighing aloud
Or huff, unsatisfied, as you sit and scowl.
To reflect on your life, feeling proud,
Or in disgust, spit on the ground.
Beginning to near, you become less and less
As you close your eyes and come to a rest.
To lose; dying, angry and stressed.
Or win; ending, with no regrets.