Forever Fourteen

Anonymous

May 6, 2022

Forever Fourteen

Will my days get interesting?

Will my metronome go up multiple numbers?

Life feels like a constant Groundhog Day

In the middle of adolescence 

Too far from adulthood

Forever Fourteen

Will there ever be a feeling of euphoria? Of dysphoria?

A nest weaved by the annoying voices in my head

My wings ache from the soreness of disappointment

Of not feeling good enough for people

Forever Fourteen

Will people see through my façade?

Will they uncover the mask of this bubbly persona to see a lonely quiet person?

My lows vulnerable, my highs too covered up

My strengths hidden, my weaknesses critiqued

Forever Fourteen

What is growing up?

Is it a stupid idea adults had for their children to mature faster?

Is it a way for adolescence to feel intimidated by the outside world?

Because if it is true, it has worked!

My body can’t take it no more

Frail from the pressure

Weak from the burnout

Every inch of me ostracized

Every part of my brain on low power mode

I 

Can’t

Take 

It 

Anymore

Forever Fourteen

I am sitting on my desk

Watching the leaves fall on the ground

“Will it all be ok” I ask myself.

I gaze out the window

and for once, I don't respond to that question.